This story was created as part of 海角破解版's 鈥淪ound of Us鈥� audio storytelling workshop. We are featuring stories about marriage. With the proportion of never-married people 40 and older at , our community storytellers explore why they got married or not 鈥� and, if they are married, how they're making their unions work. Tell your own story!
When I was a teenager in the 1970s, marriage was seen as a trap for women. Staying home, cooking and raising children, instead of pursuing our dreams? No way. We weren鈥檛 going to become our mothers.
My friends felt the same way. So what changed?
I met two friends, also in long marriages, at a Cleveland Heights pizza parlor to talk.
"I still remember saying to a group of friends, I can鈥檛 imagine that I would ever be in a monogamous, heterosexual relationship," said Ellen Rosenblatt. "That鈥檚 how we talked then, and I really believed that. And then what happened was, I was in my early 20s and I met somebody and I really loved him."
Learning to commit
Love ambushed me, too. I met my husband at a left-wing college in Florida at a party under the palm trees. We talked all night and haven鈥檛 stopped talking since. We didn鈥檛 want to be , but we wanted a life together. We had the bright idea that we could write our own rules. But we still had a lot to learn.
At the pizza parlor, my friend Jayne Eiben talked about that learning curve, too.
"I think what surprised me the most was how much growing up I had to do," Jayne said. "I would come to it with immature things like, 'Well you did this, so can I do this?' And try to negotiate. And my husband, Chris, would say, 'I don鈥檛 keep score.'"
No keeping score and no winners or losers. My husband and I loved it out, fought it out, figured it out. It wasn鈥檛 easy. When good intentions meet the reality of dirty dishes, sick kids and mortgages, sparks can fly. I thought I would break sometimes, but we toughed it out together.
"Any relationship, there has to be a sense of commitment," said my husband, Alan Kraus. "I鈥檝e made the mistakes here, or this person has upset me. But if you have a general sense I want this to continue, then that helps a long way."
I thought marriage would destroy my independence, but I didn鈥檛 realize how mutual dependence can build a life and develop strengths I didn鈥檛 know I needed. I learned how to compromise and how to listen 鈥� although that鈥檚 still a work in progress.
Time apart
But marriage isn鈥檛 all about sacrifice and compromise. There鈥檚 got to be some fun. Want to know a secret to a great long-term marriage? Spend time apart.
"I think the main activity that I do without you is music," Alan told me. "I like finding the courage to actually be involved in groups of people with music. I don鈥檛 think I鈥檓 a very skillful musician, but I enjoy it a lot and I鈥檓 doing it more and more."
Alan loves to play the guitar, but I enjoy creative writing. He bicycles and I like long, meandering nature walks. It鈥檚 the differences that keep things interesting. My friend Ellen also loves her solitude to read and create collages while her husband, Jim, plays hockey and goes to baseball games.
"I think it鈥檚 giving up the idea that you had to be there together and you had to do that together," Jim said. "She鈥檚 happy for me going and doing whatever it is I want to do. She鈥檚 very supportive. But she also has fulfillment in what she wants to do at those moments."
My husband and I are not the same people we were 40 years ago, and I鈥檓 glad we鈥檙e not. We did it our way and marriage changed us into better people. As a rebellious, alienated teen, I didn鈥檛 have the imagination to see what a partnership could be and how it could help me realize my goals.
We鈥檙e ultimately alone in this life, but for me, it鈥檚 been wonderful having someone along to share the journey.
Bonnie Brewer-Kraus graduated from Kent State University's architecture program in 1984. She raised her three sons in Cleveland Heights, where she still lives with her husband.
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